Thoughts from today...

The previous blog will be revisited lol. Just felt like talking about today. So, I'm realizing now how difficult it is for me to say "no" or make a decision. Don't get me wrong, when it comes to certain things, I'm definitely adamant about my opinions and can make choices very easily. However, today I realized that I'm still quite naive in handling some things. I'll give an example. Today, I told someone that I couldn't help them out. Some background info, here are the facts. This person knew that I came to Korea more specifically to go to school, I told them before entering grad school that I would help them out by being an english tutor once I started school. Now, here is where my feelings came into play. After I started school, which was a week ago, I slowly began to realize that I'm going to have too much work to do and adding something else to my schedule would stress me out even more. Anyway, it took a long time and after asking opinions of different people, even random ones I didn't know, I decided that I couldn't tutor for this person. I felt and still feel bad about it, but I know that at this point in my life I can't handle anything else. My thing is this, I like being able to help if I can. I feel like if I have the means or the time I should be helping somebody else, but today I realized more that I do have limits. Being in Korea this past year made me much more aware of my humaness (is that a word?) I never like to promise unless I'm sure I can follow through, and I always want to be true to my word. So, I'll have to be more careful about extending my hand if I'm not certain that I can.